YES I KNOW IT"S FUCKING MUSHY THE "HE KISSED ME" BIT.

Anyway for your information let me remind you this is a fanfic. a fanfic created by a girl with an overactive imagination.

AND IF U DIDNT KNOW. THERE ARE KISSING AND ROMANCE SCENES IN GUNDAM SERIES OK!!!

* super paiseh author

i lost one of my men during 2 skirmishes in the Himalayas. We were sent there to push back the Zeon troops who were ready to march into our territory.It was then, i realised without a doubt that i was losing my touch.

something had changed within me since the last few mths i had joined EFSF. Somehow, i felt that Kei was to blame for my performance deterioration. I had to do something about it.

Komori was away in Zeon territory conducting an infiltration exercise under the guise of a Zeon soldier named MADAO (who names their child that!!) and i really miss his guidance. Now me and Kurosa are left behind. Kurosa got promoted to Corporal recently and at his current performance level, i forsee him rising to sergeant soon. By then, i'll probably be alone.

i sent in a request to Commander Neo at HQ to request to be posted somewhere else far away from all i know right now. i felt, that i needed a retreat, where i could hone my skills without any familiar inteference.

my request was met with major opposition.Neo felt i was just going thru an "burnout" due to my team's casualty and arranged for military leave for me, Kurosa thought i was an idiot, and Kei lost his temper and ran out of the Medical Facility during his medical checkup to confront me.

i refused to explain anything to him. Instead we ended up getting into an all out physical duel because he refused to let me go.

the next thing i knew, i was down on the floor unable to run anywhere. I had trained him too well....

and then he kissed me.....

ever since kei was hospitalised. i haven been thinking straight. Battles have been badly lost, i have not been leading my men right, and i have been screwing up battle plans. thank god there's no casualties or else my dream of avenging Stellar One-Chan will fly down the drain

damn what isit about him that captivates me? why do i like him? why am i getting distracted when i am supposed to have stellar One-sama and only her in my heart?

all my battles, from the desert to the forest have been terribly performed. Kurosa commented i was fighting more on raging instinct then on cool intellect.

i know it's only been a few days and he'll be discharged 2moro. but it feels like eternity. technically he could have been discharged 1 day after entering the medical facility but Erina wanted to keep him for observation for a few more days.that day when i saw him, he was aslp but he woke up when he saw me and for the first time,

he smiled

as i ran down the corridor, memories of what had happened that day in the battlefield slowly came back in flashes

"we were to be sent to 3 different locations underground to seal off any Zeon attempts to infiltrate the area closest to the base. platoon 1 covered the vent to prevent Zeon sneak attacks. Kurosa led Platoon 5 underwater to cut off Zeon's escape and i led the full frontal assault team to the middle. Komori led the long range team to a high area to offer support

the onslaught was fierce. Zeon had been well prepared for this attack. this base location was important to them and they wanted to monopolise it at all costs.

we had destroyed many Zeon enemies when suddenly , the monster appeared.

large, highly defensive with lightning fast ammo drawing power and mobility, i was quickly overpowered and that was when Kei braved the line of fire to get me out of the field. Kurosa And Komori were able to hold him off but with difficulty.

this must have been the same monster that destroyed almost all of platoon 1.

that was the last thing i knew b4 everything went black"


i then threw open the door to where the POD was located.

when i awakened, i was alone, on the bed in the medical facility of one of the EFSF bases.Izumi Erina, the head doctor in the medical facility was at one corner, reading the vital stats of another patient.

when i went up close, i realised it was a heavily injured EFSF soldier; another casualty on the battlefield.

but, when i tried to recall what it was that happened, i only felt a dull ache in my temple.

on further inquiry, Erina told us that one of the EFSF underground bases had been attacked by the Zeon forces. platoon 1, 3 and 5 had been sent down to counteract the invasion of Zeon forces. Platoon 1 had almost been entirely wiped out, most of the platoon 3-5 members were surviving, albeit with heavy casualties. many of them were currently in intensive care.

Komori and Kurosa had also been injured and were receiving medical treatment, but as their injuries had not been serious they had been discharged from the ward to their own bunks.

Kei was still hospitalised as he had taken serious damage, apparently trying to get me out of the battlefield. i had passed out after trying to take down many enemy mobile suits while having my own suit seriously damaged by enemy fire.

my POD had been shifted down from another base due to the fact that they would be deploying me to this new base for awhile. it was largely due to that that my life was saved.

currently the EFSF base was still holding out, due to the fact that the Zeon forces had suffered heavy losses on their side too.

Kei was the one recuperating in my POD now. without the POD technology, he could still survive, but his recovery rate would have been much slower.

i discussed with Erina wether she could run some studies on possibilities of weaning me off the POD technology, as she was almost as capable as Doctor Alpha at neurological Science, and then ran off to see Kei.

kei seems troubled of late. ever since he returned from his recent medical checkup with doctor alpha, he has been even more brooding and quiet.

it wasnt his usual silence where he just sat around sullenly, but more of a dark quiet fear.

something told me that he was frightened, but knowing Kei, what could he have to fear?

it must be something formidable indeed. can it be then that i was right and that Alpha is indeed plotting something? much more then must lie beyond that pretty face facade she's showing the EFSF

kei has come far since the first time i met him. in the short span of time since he first joined into the EFSF, he has already been promoted to first class private; definitely faster thenn me when i first enlisted.

since i was recently finally promoted to a corporal, i now hold the same rank as Komori ( there's talk that he will be promoted to sergeant soon). therefore i am now officially able to train others under me.

for now Lieutenant Marko holsteen via Officer Regis has assigned Kei back to me again officially as my understudy. strangely enough kei seems to have toned down as his hostility to me is decidely muted and not as apparent now. maybe training under Regis has thought him a thing or two!

i was talking to ZZL today and more and more i'm convinced that something about him disturbs me.

his voice, he claims we have never met b4 but i remember hearing his voice, a long time ago, somewhere within my memories

and his eyes, his face seems friendly when he's talkin to you but something bout him tells me his eyes have seen the bloody remnants of war and he himself has bathed in the rivers of blood that ran in battle.

he is a dangerous one. but who is he?

and slowly, as the clock hand turns, it all falls into place

soon, it will be time for my creation, my life's blood to prove that he is indeed the supreme being.

and the very first thing i'll let him do is to utterly defeat that prototype; that pathetic object that the EFSF troops found on their forage thru the ruins of the old side 7 laboratories.

Kei, together with the memory chip of the best extend in Generation 1, will make a fearsome combination just yet. and if he will not cooperate...i will make him cooperate.let them all see what i am capable of!

Rage
a very potent thing isnt it?
when one is consumed by rage,
it envelopes you in a bloody red cloud and threatens to engulf all,
destroying everything in it's path

as the victim and harbinger of rage,
one should think i understand all
but i don't

Sorrow
the manifestation of intense pain that one feels in their hearts
it makes you see things that arent there
feel things that dun exist
and it can make you hate

Happiness
the opposing entity of sorrow
or isit?
of all three, the most fleeting of emotions but yet
the one that is most desired to be felt of all the three
the most transient, and some would say,
the most beautiful

but of all the three emotions
there is only a very thin line,
before the ice cracks
to hatred, bitterness and insanity

which ultimately leads to
DEATH



The Diary of Reiko Ayumu

they promoted me to Class A due to outstanding performance in battle. apparently, i snapped under tremendous pressure and went on a massacre. the superiors felt that i should be taken out in Rengeki Extend and placed under Class A where the specialists and high ranking soldiers were...

to be honest i should have been happy but i wasnt. although i hated to admit it, i was beginnning to feel at home in platoon combination 3 where i had begun to make friends. i should have been happy to climb up the ladder to avenge my sister, but the sting of losing her was lessening with the company of dear friends.

i shouldnt be feeling this way when i should be loyal to my sister's memory.

the confusion is driving me insane..

and the other reason is him....

i hate to admit it but....i think i am falling for him, to the point i cant bear lookin at him and yet i cant bear not being able to see him

but i dun want to like a person like him.he's a liability, a distraction,

and he hates me

i probably dun deserve him anyway, he's too good for me and he probably wont look twice at me.

i missed platoon 3 so much that i actually screwed up real bad on one of my Class A recon missions. part of the reason was also due to the fact i was not used to the GM command mobile suit, whose artillery power i felt wasnt substantial enough to make a full out attack.

after that incident , the higher ups reevaluated my situation and decided to demote my class, placing me back in Rengeki Exend again, but not before promoting me to Corporal in recognition to my contributions in the battlefield.

was i relieved? maybe, but i also felt an inward loneliness, that somehow, even though i called, even though they mite be here with me, they werent there with me..there was a cold silence within me that surrounded my inner being like a wall,

i could call and call and no one would answer.

confidential Report to Side 7 Headquarters. Addressed to Commander Neo

Report No 3

Status reports of military personnel :

lance Corporal Reiko Ayumu:
LC Reiko has gone a long way since the last evaluation that was sent. shortly after she was promoted to First class Private, she was once again promoted, this time to Lance corporal. i can forsee her being promoted to corporal rank very soon. in fact, her superior Corporal Komori is highly for it. but until we have enough validation to do it, she'll have to remain at this rank.

Reiko's aptitude for combat is very good, and her mental stability in battle has smoothened out a lot. but she tends to get moody recently. judging from her recent behavior, she does not interact as much with even her fellow members from the rengeki extend; and enjoys working alone more often these days.

she also seems to have problems with Rookie Kei Arukawa. the both of them do not get along well even after some time of interaction. only recently, do they seem to have grown more tolerant of each other.

the only other soldier i see her interact with is Luna, one of our top performing combatants.

we will need to train her human relationship skills if we want to see to her promotion, or there'll be no reason to justify her promotion other then outstanding performance in combat.

Corporal Komori:
Corporal Komori has also been promoted recently to a Corporal and is soon to be promoted to sergeant once he hits the minimum requirements needed to be a sergeant.

Komori has recently switched being frontline backup to midrange-longrange backup. it appears that this vocation is more suited for him as he performs much better in battle, making many hits and even destroying the enemy bases.

currently Reiko is offering frontline support, with Kurosa still leading the battalion.

Lance Corporal Kurosa:
Now promoted to LAnce Corporal, Kurosa's performance have not disappointed us thus far. up to date, Kurosa is one of the younger, inexperienced personnel that has attained many achievements in battle that other older, more experienced soldiers have not achieved yet.

Kurosa is being monitored to see if he can be set up for an even higher leadership position.

written by lieutenant Marko Holsteen of Side 7 facility
Labels: November 09